Sunday, October 25, 2009
Its been quite a while since I last wrote in this blog. Today I just felt so down. I don't know how to express this feeling but all I can say is that I felt so empty inside. There's no one I can share this feeling with. Its very hard for me to trust people other the Lord. Its only to him that I pour out my feelings. And He's also the only One I know who can help me to solve all my problems. I'm born a worrier. I always felt that I don't have anyone who really cares about me and my feeling. Sometimes I felt so alone in this world. And I never let anyone knows my real feelings. I envy those who are very vocal in expressing their thoughts and their feelings. Why can't I be like them. At least I can release some of these tension in me. Sometimes I felt that some people intentionly hurts me although I never did them any wrong. I always try to do good deeds sincerely to help others who are in need. But my own needs are always being overlooked. When I need help or support there's no one I can turn to who I can trust and who really are sincere in helping. I feel so empty and hurt.