Down....

I'm feeling down again today. Life feels so empty. Have no one to turn to who I can trust. Only in the Lord God I put my trust and who knows how I feel and who will get me back on track. I wish all my good dreams will come true. Please Lord lift up my spirit so I can get on with my life. When I'm down I just don't feel like doing anything, and a lot of things will not get done. Huhuhu ..........back to square 1.

MY LORD GOD....

Happy moments - PRAISE GOD
Difficult moments - SEEK GOD
Quiet moments - WORSHIP GOD
Painful moments - TRUST GOD
Every moment - THANK GOD

Trip to Sri Aman...

30 May 2010

Just came back from Sri Aman. Went there to attend hubby's relative wedding. We stayed at the Theater Inn which is in the centre of the town. The hotel room looks new and its clean. I recomeded this Inn for those who intend to find a room there. The rated is quite reasonable at RM86 per night for a double bed with breakfast at RM3 per person. You top up the balance if the food cost more.
We started our journey from Kuching on 29 May '10 and transit at Kepayang to send the kids. From there we started our drive at abt 3pm and reached Sri Aman at abt 5pm. The wedding dinner was at Tiara Inn.
The next morning we left at about 9 am and reached Kuching at about 12.30 pm. The journey takes app abt 3 1/2 hrs.

Feelings and emotion are like a jug of water.....

A jug full of water.....

We water the plant regularly. The plant will grow and flower will blossom beautifully. But the water in the jug will eventually be used up and become empty if you don't refill it.

Down...

I'm feeling down again today. Sometimes I wish someone would give me a gift or a present. Nothing expensive but with sincerity. It will make me feel special and wanted. All these time while I've been the one giving, not that I'm complaining because God have blessed me abundantely. I thank God for all the blessings that he has given me and I will always share it with those in need. But sometimes I need someone who is close to me and whom I love, to show me that they love me and that I meant a lot to them. I always envy those who are showered with all the gifts, present and what not. I really want to feel the pleasure of receiving sometimes maybe on special occasion, like my birthday, mother's day, wedding anniversary, valentine day or what ever. It make me feel so empty and frustrated. I will always console myself by knowing that there is God who loves me very much and who will give me only the best inspite of all my shortcoming.

Hurt...

A few days ago my little angels said things that really hurt my feelings. I know as kids they are only saying things without thinking. But as I looked back at what I did to them I don't blame anyone but myself. I know I'm quite harsh at times but I still love them very much. God, give me the strength to control my anger and my temper. I don't want to hurt my little angels. They are very precious to me Lord. Let your angels guard and guide them whereever they are. Forgive me Lord for I am weak. Give me the strength to overcome all evils. Bless each and everyone of us Lord so that we can live in peace and harmony.

Trust....

Its been quite a while since I last wrote in this blog. Today I just felt so down. I don't know how to express this feeling but all I can say is that I felt so empty inside. There's no one I can share this feeling with. Its very hard for me to trust people other the Lord. Its only to him that I pour out my feelings. And He's also the only One I know who can help me to solve all my problems. I'm born a worrier. I always felt that I don't have anyone who really cares about me and my feeling. Sometimes I felt so alone in this world. And I never let anyone knows my real feelings. I envy those who are very vocal in expressing their thoughts and their feelings. Why can't I be like them. At least I can release some of these tension in me. Sometimes I felt that some people intentionly hurts me although I never did them any wrong. I always try to do good deeds sincerely to help others who are in need. But my own needs are always being overlooked. When I need help or support there's no one I can turn to who I can trust and who really are sincere in helping. I feel so empty and hurt.

Simple Rules to be Happy

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

1st August W A dinner

Last night we had our wedding aniversary dinner at Merdeka Palace. This is the second time we had it there. The first time was when we celebrated our 10th W.A. Nice place and good food (buffet). But hubby said last year the food was better. The kids enjoyed themselves, no doubt. Well, since they weren't at our wedding dinner 11th yrs ago so now they celebrating it with us. We all enjoyed ourselves.

Wedding Anniversary

Hubby dear,

11 yrs hv passed since we started our life together.

Life isn't always a bed of roses but we've managed to breeze through.

Your patient, kindness, gentleness and love have pulled me through
all the difficult moments that we encountered.

Although you don't express your love openly but I can see it through
the little things that you did for me.

I appreciate all that but at times I know I do get on your nerves.

Forgive me dear; I'll try my best to be a better person!

But deep down in my heart you know that I love you very much.

I pray that God will bless our marriage, our life, our health, our family and
overflow us with love and ever lasting happiness.